off routine

my internal clock is fucked. i guess that's what i get for sleeping in until 1pm (at the earliest) every day during spring break. my old habits washed over me with a high water mark, leaving me feeling ridiculously down this week. it's only tuesday (wed morning). this is not only because i haven't adjusted yet to getting eight or less hours of sleep, but also because i did absolutely no work over spring break (i fell asleep multiple times trying to read textbooks) i have some serious catching up to do. on top of that, because i slacked and munchied so much over spring break (spring break? really? since when is spring break supposed to be freezing temperatures?) i forced myself to workout to exhaustion the past two days and it's making it impossible for me to stay up and do homework as long as i want to.

i skipped class on monday (after promising myself not to skip anymore this semester) and i'm trying to babystep my way back into the routine. but i feel like instead i'm only babystepping my stress levels up and eventually they'll peak and i'll snap, leading ultimately back to the road of slackerdom and academic apathy. its gotten me by the past two and a half years, so i should be able to last a few more days (or weeks?). right?

right?

it doesn't help that the heat randomly shut off in my apartment and i hate sleeping in uncomfortable sweats. i'm going to sleep an hour before usual and i've shortcutted my homework the past two days. i just popped my last diphenhydramine hydrochloride pill (basically, any OTC sleep aid) in the hopes that it'll give me some much needed rest and let me wake up with a better attitude than this, because right now i feel like skipping my classes to failure.

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